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Feb. 14th, 2003
over the course of several days my little adventure was speecifically not covered by one of my closeest friends,
mama2judeand one, and two, and three, and four.
there was one email that was suppose to go to her but didn't. not that it would have made that much sense any way. it was logins and passwords to all my accounts. most of them at the very least. there were two problems with it. it got sent to another close friend and all of the passwords were wrong. i gave out my phone number wrong to several people as well. but the above peerson was pretty much left out of the loop because no one thought to talk to her. because of the above post plus a non-public thread at rebal mamas there were several discussions about me that i am at best only halfway aware of. the following sent to
mama2jude me by is example of such...This is the PM
feygrrl sent me on 2/1 (in response to a post I made that "Ithink my friend is going to kill himself"):
I wanted to PM you instead of posting since I know the person you're talking
about. He's on my friends list and he's on mine so I kind of wondered about
his last LJ entry. You do everything you humanly can to help him. I'm sorry
you're going through this and know how much he means to you. Keep us all
posted, I'd really like to know how he's doing. Mainly just because I hurt
when people I'm familiar with are hurting. I hope you don't mind me asking
for updates.
xo
feygrrl
what that means is there is one more person who will be getting favors from me and have my respect, care and concern until it is no longer wanted. and it's another woman. seems like very few men can tolerate me, or vice versa. i am just heart broken over that fact. maybe it is because i was raised around four girls.
for those who are curious...
--i got was finally able to get my scripts filled but do not like the results.
--the image up top is about a year old. keep saying i'm gonna use it on my site but have yet to put it there. seems to fit here just as well.
--i am just about fininshed with what i am going to say about this mess but i know it is not finished.
swiped this one from jaded_star
...its not a test but a lesson learn in time
First Grade Teacher: mrs evans until she had to leave to have her baby. same thing happened with mrs vann, my second and third grade teacher.
Last word you said:fuck because i almost fell down again. i would have had i not grabbed the refrigerator.
Last song you sang: depeche mode - personal jesus because it was on someones lj post for today
Last person you hugged: mindy, after she cooked me dinner and she and ruby did my dishes because i am not physically able to do either really.
Last thing you laughed at: my life and how ridiculous it has become. or always been.
Last time you said I love you: i don't even remember. i don't have any in me anyway.
Last time you cried: earlier this morning. shortly after i woke up. just about to again.
What's in your CD player: had to get up and go look. it's been a while since i touched it, but it contained live through this.
What color socks are you wearing: no socks for my dirty feet but i was wearing black ones when i went to sleep. where are they anyway?
What's under your bed: i don't have a bed. so there would be pipes and stuff under the floor.
What time did you wake up today: i'm still not really awake yet.
Current taste: diet coke and djarum specials. same things i always taste.
Current hair: messy dirty and topped in a black scrunchie to keep it out of my eyes.
Current clothes: $3 #13 wally world shirt and my pants from the hospital with dried blood on them.
Current annoyance: the telephone ringing and not ringing
Current longing: for certian issues to be finished and done with so i can get on with things.
Current desktop picture:a picture Death from the Sandman comics that i got from newsgroups a long time ago and tweaked out to be a wallpaper.
Current worry: how long it's going to be before i fuck thiings up again like i always seem to do.
Current hate: anything and everything that comes too close to me. if it's within reach it is getting broken.
Current favorite article of clothing: my fancy pants if i could find them. they are dark blue 100% polyester so they are ugly but they feel like pajama bottoms compared to the pants i normally wear.
Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: the face tells so many things and does not lie.
Favorite physical feature of the same sex: once again it is the face.
Last CD that you bought: Johnny cash - American IV: The Man Comes Around and need to get more of his recording because what i have just isn't enough
Favorite place to be: anywhere but here. any time but now.
Least favorite place: right here wherre i am sitting
Time you wake up in the morning: it all depends on the day and the mood of discontent.
If you could play an instrument, what would it be: i would play the piano drunk like a percussion instrument until my fingeer began to bleed a bit
Favorite color: that depends if black counts as the absense or presence of all colors.
Do you believe in an afterlife: maybe but either way i don't believe that one asshole is for real.
How tall are you: six foot of two cents plane
Current favorite word/saying: fuck fuck fuckity fuck
Favorite book: it is either Love Is a Dog from Hell or The First Five even thourgh i own it as individual books. yes i am also a book collector nerd sometimes.
Favorite season: winter because of more reason than i am going to list here
One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: joyce but i will cover that in my dead and dying crushes post.
Favorite day: the fourth of july because i get to blow shit up and not have the cops called on me.
Where do you want to go: alaska and about 24 other states. how many times do i have to say it before it actually happens?
What is your career going to be like: it is going to be a collection of jobs that are anything but food service. so far it has mostly been like that.
What kind of car will you have: at some point i will have a jaguar and not the piece of shit i have now. but it will be used so it will be a more expensive piece of shit that i actually like.
A line you remember from a book: "never whistle while you are pissing"
A random song lyric "if i should die before i wake then you'll know why send me an angel to love i need to feel a little piece of heaven "
Identify some things surrounding your computer: decortive restraint, assorted scanned pictures, cd's pill bottles, cd's, pill bottles, 2 new eyebrows, electrical tape, cough drops, coupons, cd's, dead printer cartridges, vcr's, tv, pens, clock, chia pet, phillies blunt
Bouns] Where are my keys: since i still can't find them they must be up your butt
jaded_star...its not a test but a lesson learn in time
First Grade Teacher: mrs evans until she had to leave to have her baby. same thing happened with mrs vann, my second and third grade teacher.
Last word you said:fuck because i almost fell down again. i would have had i not grabbed the refrigerator.
Last song you sang: depeche mode - personal jesus because it was on someones lj post for today
Last person you hugged: mindy, after she cooked me dinner and she and ruby did my dishes because i am not physically able to do either really.
Last thing you laughed at: my life and how ridiculous it has become. or always been.
Last time you said I love you: i don't even remember. i don't have any in me anyway.
Last time you cried: earlier this morning. shortly after i woke up. just about to again.
What's in your CD player: had to get up and go look. it's been a while since i touched it, but it contained live through this.
What color socks are you wearing: no socks for my dirty feet but i was wearing black ones when i went to sleep. where are they anyway?
What's under your bed: i don't have a bed. so there would be pipes and stuff under the floor.
What time did you wake up today: i'm still not really awake yet.
Current taste: diet coke and djarum specials. same things i always taste.
Current hair: messy dirty and topped in a black scrunchie to keep it out of my eyes.
Current clothes: $3 #13 wally world shirt and my pants from the hospital with dried blood on them.
Current annoyance: the telephone ringing and not ringing
Current longing: for certian issues to be finished and done with so i can get on with things.
Current desktop picture:a picture Death from the Sandman comics that i got from newsgroups a long time ago and tweaked out to be a wallpaper.
Current worry: how long it's going to be before i fuck thiings up again like i always seem to do.
Current hate: anything and everything that comes too close to me. if it's within reach it is getting broken.
Current favorite article of clothing: my fancy pants if i could find them. they are dark blue 100% polyester so they are ugly but they feel like pajama bottoms compared to the pants i normally wear.
Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: the face tells so many things and does not lie.
Favorite physical feature of the same sex: once again it is the face.
Last CD that you bought: Johnny cash - American IV: The Man Comes Around and need to get more of his recording because what i have just isn't enough
Favorite place to be: anywhere but here. any time but now.
Least favorite place: right here wherre i am sitting
Time you wake up in the morning: it all depends on the day and the mood of discontent.
If you could play an instrument, what would it be: i would play the piano drunk like a percussion instrument until my fingeer began to bleed a bit
Favorite color: that depends if black counts as the absense or presence of all colors.
Do you believe in an afterlife: maybe but either way i don't believe that one asshole is for real.
How tall are you: six foot of two cents plane
Current favorite word/saying: fuck fuck fuckity fuck
Favorite book: it is either Love Is a Dog from Hell or The First Five even thourgh i own it as individual books. yes i am also a book collector nerd sometimes.
Favorite season: winter because of more reason than i am going to list here
One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: joyce but i will cover that in my dead and dying crushes post.
Favorite day: the fourth of july because i get to blow shit up and not have the cops called on me.
Where do you want to go: alaska and about 24 other states. how many times do i have to say it before it actually happens?
What is your career going to be like: it is going to be a collection of jobs that are anything but food service. so far it has mostly been like that.
What kind of car will you have: at some point i will have a jaguar and not the piece of shit i have now. but it will be used so it will be a more expensive piece of shit that i actually like.
A line you remember from a book: "never whistle while you are pissing"
A random song lyric "if i should die before i wake then you'll know why send me an angel to love i need to feel a little piece of heaven "
Identify some things surrounding your computer: decortive restraint, assorted scanned pictures, cd's pill bottles, cd's, pill bottles, 2 new eyebrows, electrical tape, cough drops, coupons, cd's, dead printer cartridges, vcr's, tv, pens, clock, chia pet, phillies blunt
Bouns] Where are my keys: since i still can't find them they must be up your butt
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...but now the moods changed
EmpAllin [11:38 AM]: i say it was so it was
SuperDorkySister [11:38 AM]: yeh- and my ass talks
SuperDorkySister[11:39 AM]: that's not mine
EmpAllin [11:39 AM]: that's a neat trick. you could go on letterman with that
SuperDorkySister[11:39 AM]: if you get the truck, they need to know that I'm driving and you're paying
EmpAllin [11:40 AM]: wait your as can drive a truck too?
SuperDorkySister[11:40 AM]: I hit a tree with the last one
SuperDorkySister[11:40 AM]: yep
SuperDorkySister[11:40 AM]: that's the real trick
EmpAllin [11:40 AM]: i'm glad i have never been dumb enough to hit a tree
SuperDorkySister[11:41 AM]: hey
SuperDorkySister[11:41 AM]: with the top of the truck- the tree was leaning over the street
SuperDorkySister[11:41 AM]: DoubleJBIL did the same thing in a mail truck
EmpAllin [11:42 AM]: lol. you people are on crack
SuperDorkySister[11:42 AM]: 16 shells from a thirty-ought six
EmpAllin [11:42 AM]: and again i am glad i have never been dumb enough to back into a tree
SuperDorkySister[11:42 AM]: uh-huh
SuperDorkySister[11:43 AM]: and then get stuck in the mud
SuperDorkySister[11:43 AM]: :-D
EmpAllin [11:43 AM]: what are you talking about?
SuperDorkySister[11:44 AM]: Customers who wear clothes also shop for:
Clean Underwear from Amazon's Eddie Bauer Store
Ladybug Rain Boots from Amazon's Nordstrom Store
Suede Headwraps from Amazon's International Male Store
Cheetah Print Slippers from Amazon's Old Navy Store
For a limited time get $30 to spend at Amazon when you spend $50 in Amazon's new Apparel Store!
huh
SuperDorkySister[11:45 AM]: Customers who wear clothes?
EmpAllin [11:45 AM]: you looking for clean underwear?
SuperDorkySister[11:45 AM]: nope
EmpAllin [11:45 AM]: then you can't shop for clothes at amazon
SuperDorkySister[11:46 AM]: nope
EmpAllin [11:46 AM]: or are you saying i should shop for it with you driving my stuff??
SuperDorkySister[11:46 AM]: I guess
SuperDorkySister[11:47 AM]: A 15 footer should be pokay- how long is the drive fromthere to mom's?
EmpAllin [11:48 AM]: "treat cars like women. take 'em home and strip 'em"
SuperDorkySister[11:48 AM]: what's a pokay?
EmpAllin [11:48 AM]: you slut
EmpAllin [11:48 AM]: you want a 15 footer
SuperDorkySister[11:48 AM]: yep
SuperDorkySister[11:48 AM]: no you do
EmpAllin [11:48 AM]: no i am happy with my 30 ought 6
SuperDorkySister[11:49 AM]: May there always be work for your hands to do;
May your purse always hold a coin or two;
May the sun always shine on your windowpane;
May a rainbow be certain to follow each rain;
May the hand of a friend always be near you;
May God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you.
EmpAllin [11:49 AM]: fuck all of that stuff
SuperDorkySister[11:49 AM]: thta was the tom waites song on the computer
EmpAllin [11:50 AM]: i know i was going to use it in my lj last night
SuperDorkySister[11:54 AM]: WHY DID THE CHICKEN CROSS THE ROAD?
BILL GATES: I have just released eChicken 2003, which will not only cross roads, but will lay eggs, file your important documents, and balance your checkbook and Internet Explorer is an inextricable part of eChicken.
ERNEST HEMINGWAY: To die. In the rain. Alone.
JERRY FALWELL: Because the chicken was gay! Isn't it obvious? Can't you people see the plain truth in front of your face? The chicken was going to the "other side." That's what they call it -- the other side. Yes, my friends, that chicken is gay. And, if you eat that chicken, you will become gay too. I say we boycott all chickens until we sort out this abomination that the liberal media whitewashes with seemingly harmless phrases like "the other side."
SuperDorkySister[11:54 AM]: gotta go get clothes out of dryer
EmpAllin [11:55 AM]: good you need to settle down
SuperDorkySister[11:55 AM]: huh?
SuperDorkySister[11:55 AM]: >:o
EmpAllin [11:55 AM]: i am about to cut and paste your ass
EmpAllin [11:55 AM]: >_<
SuperDorkySister[11:56 AM]: ouch- I don't think it'll be able to drive after that
EmpAllin [11:56 AM]: oh damn. sorry
SuperDorkySister[11:57 AM]: :-\
Bonus] where is my mail at?
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...but now the moods changed
EmpAllin [11:38 AM]: i say it was so it was
SuperDorkySister [11:38 AM]: yeh- and my ass talks
SuperDorkySister[11:39 AM]: that's not mine
EmpAllin [11:39 AM]: that's a neat trick. you could go on letterman with that
SuperDorkySister[11:39 AM]: if you get the truck, they need to know that I'm driving and you're paying
EmpAllin [11:40 AM]: wait your as can drive a truck too?
SuperDorkySister[11:40 AM]: I hit a tree with the last one
SuperDorkySister[11:40 AM]: yep
SuperDorkySister[11:40 AM]: that's the real trick
EmpAllin [11:40 AM]: i'm glad i have never been dumb enough to hit a tree
SuperDorkySister[11:41 AM]: hey
SuperDorkySister[11:41 AM]: with the top of the truck- the tree was leaning over the street
SuperDorkySister[11:41 AM]: DoubleJBIL did the same thing in a mail truck
EmpAllin [11:42 AM]: lol. you people are on crack
SuperDorkySister[11:42 AM]: 16 shells from a thirty-ought six
EmpAllin [11:42 AM]: and again i am glad i have never been dumb enough to back into a tree
SuperDorkySister[11:42 AM]: uh-huh
SuperDorkySister[11:43 AM]: and then get stuck in the mud
SuperDorkySister[11:43 AM]: :-D
EmpAllin [11:43 AM]: what are you talking about?
SuperDorkySister[11:44 AM]: Customers who wear clothes also shop for:
Clean Underwear from Amazon's Eddie Bauer Store
Ladybug Rain Boots from Amazon's Nordstrom Store
Suede Headwraps from Amazon's International Male Store
Cheetah Print Slippers from Amazon's Old Navy Store
For a limited time get $30 to spend at Amazon when you spend $50 in Amazon's new Apparel Store!
huh
SuperDorkySister[11:45 AM]: Customers who wear clothes?
EmpAllin [11:45 AM]: you looking for clean underwear?
SuperDorkySister[11:45 AM]: nope
EmpAllin [11:45 AM]: then you can't shop for clothes at amazon
SuperDorkySister[11:46 AM]: nope
EmpAllin [11:46 AM]: or are you saying i should shop for it with you driving my stuff??
SuperDorkySister[11:46 AM]: I guess
SuperDorkySister[11:47 AM]: A 15 footer should be pokay- how long is the drive fromthere to mom's?
EmpAllin [11:48 AM]: "treat cars like women. take 'em home and strip 'em"
SuperDorkySister[11:48 AM]: what's a pokay?
EmpAllin [11:48 AM]: you slut
EmpAllin [11:48 AM]: you want a 15 footer
SuperDorkySister[11:48 AM]: yep
SuperDorkySister[11:48 AM]: no you do
EmpAllin [11:48 AM]: no i am happy with my 30 ought 6
SuperDorkySister[11:49 AM]: May there always be work for your hands to do;
May your purse always hold a coin or two;
May the sun always shine on your windowpane;
May a rainbow be certain to follow each rain;
May the hand of a friend always be near you;
May God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you.
EmpAllin [11:49 AM]: fuck all of that stuff
SuperDorkySister[11:49 AM]: thta was the tom waites song on the computer
EmpAllin [11:50 AM]: i know i was going to use it in my lj last night
SuperDorkySister[11:54 AM]: WHY DID THE CHICKEN CROSS THE ROAD?
BILL GATES: I have just released eChicken 2003, which will not only cross roads, but will lay eggs, file your important documents, and balance your checkbook and Internet Explorer is an inextricable part of eChicken.
ERNEST HEMINGWAY: To die. In the rain. Alone.
JERRY FALWELL: Because the chicken was gay! Isn't it obvious? Can't you people see the plain truth in front of your face? The chicken was going to the "other side." That's what they call it -- the other side. Yes, my friends, that chicken is gay. And, if you eat that chicken, you will become gay too. I say we boycott all chickens until we sort out this abomination that the liberal media whitewashes with seemingly harmless phrases like "the other side."
SuperDorkySister[11:54 AM]: gotta go get clothes out of dryer
EmpAllin [11:55 AM]: good you need to settle down
SuperDorkySister[11:55 AM]: huh?
SuperDorkySister[11:55 AM]: >:o
EmpAllin [11:55 AM]: i am about to cut and paste your ass
EmpAllin [11:55 AM]: >_<
SuperDorkySister[11:56 AM]: ouch- I don't think it'll be able to drive after that
EmpAllin [11:56 AM]: oh damn. sorry
SuperDorkySister[11:57 AM]: :-\
Bonus] where is my mail at?