a sucker in a uniform waiting to get shot
Oct. 12th, 2003 05:26 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
empallinoh cripes this must be serious. allin is wearing his glasses, on his meds, wearing a descendents t and got his hair scrunched up. what gives? well a lot of things that need to get said to clear space for other things, this is the sersious shit and not the post that most are expecting,
while i was away i got to thinking about one of the first posts i made to my lj. to save you from clicking and waiting for nothing all it says is...
[ mood |
sad ]
somebody please help me
...and that is it. and until now it remained private. i have gone back several times and reread it. over and over. a little late but there you have it. maybe the meds are helping. maybe i am just being stupid but that was one of three private posts i have posted.
also while i was along the coast i was delivered the news that my paternal grandfather has internal bleeding and will not receive any kind of treatment for it. as it stands there is already a dnr in place an it basically means that it will not be very long at all and i really probably should go up there. i just don't think i can handle the waiting. yeah it is very sad but that would never be what he wanted. he is 90+ years old and pretty much no longer himself. but even in the past few painful years he has kept people laughing even if he had no idea what he was talking about. the only regret i have is that i was could never get it when he was trying to teach me to play the jew's harp. anyway i want to share with you some of the things he shared with me when i was a kid.
they say beer makes you stupid but it made bud wiser...i actually got this one.
which falls faster a ton of bricks or a ton of feathers?...when i got it wrong he actually took the time to give a seven year old my first physics lesson.
if you have twenty sick sheep and one dies how many are left alive?...say it out load to someone else and i'll bet they say 25.
then there were his stories. called a preacher a lying bastard to his face for breaking a deal about the days sermon and never went back, talked about muskogee having a race riot at the same time tulsa did, showed me how to make a shotgun out of a rock and a fire cracker and a piece of pipe, taught me a lot of lessons in tolerance and a hundred other things. i wish that this whole thing is not too painful for him. and do not apologize. it is not your fault. there is nothing to be sorry for. he lived a very full life. 9 kids is pretty damn full if you ask me.
and just for those who have not figured it out allin is not my real name but it is pretty damn close. and my favourite colour is torch crimson.
and in case you thought it couldn't get worse... O_o
while i was away i got to thinking about one of the first posts i made to my lj. to save you from clicking and waiting for nothing all it says is...
[12 Feb 2002|06:25pm]
[ mood |
sad ] somebody please help me
...and that is it. and until now it remained private. i have gone back several times and reread it. over and over. a little late but there you have it. maybe the meds are helping. maybe i am just being stupid but that was one of three private posts i have posted.
also while i was along the coast i was delivered the news that my paternal grandfather has internal bleeding and will not receive any kind of treatment for it. as it stands there is already a dnr in place an it basically means that it will not be very long at all and i really probably should go up there. i just don't think i can handle the waiting. yeah it is very sad but that would never be what he wanted. he is 90+ years old and pretty much no longer himself. but even in the past few painful years he has kept people laughing even if he had no idea what he was talking about. the only regret i have is that i was could never get it when he was trying to teach me to play the jew's harp. anyway i want to share with you some of the things he shared with me when i was a kid.
they say beer makes you stupid but it made bud wiser...i actually got this one.
which falls faster a ton of bricks or a ton of feathers?...when i got it wrong he actually took the time to give a seven year old my first physics lesson.
if you have twenty sick sheep and one dies how many are left alive?...say it out load to someone else and i'll bet they say 25.
then there were his stories. called a preacher a lying bastard to his face for breaking a deal about the days sermon and never went back, talked about muskogee having a race riot at the same time tulsa did, showed me how to make a shotgun out of a rock and a fire cracker and a piece of pipe, taught me a lot of lessons in tolerance and a hundred other things. i wish that this whole thing is not too painful for him. and do not apologize. it is not your fault. there is nothing to be sorry for. he lived a very full life. 9 kids is pretty damn full if you ask me.
and just for those who have not figured it out allin is not my real name but it is pretty damn close. and my favourite colour is torch crimson.
and in case you thought it couldn't get worse... O_o
