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empallinok i have still be thinking about the question 
feygrrl posed to me that i answered in this post. but then sleepsleep made a friends post about getting her new hearing aids. in which she said..
"When I was walking out of the hospital today I realized that I was lucky to have a hearing loss.. if I did not have the choice of whether or not to wear my hearing aids I would be crawling out of my skin.. sensory overload. Maybe normal hearing people can tune it out, but I do not think normal hearing bipolars can tune it out. Which is why bipolars tend to freak out on their neighbors, etc. etc. etc. NOISE! NOISE! NOISE"
...and that made me start thinking that in the end that may be the reason that i always have the music going. it drowns out most of the surprise everyday noises. i can lose my self in the lyrics and forget everything else. and sure i might be a little anal* retentive about my music or something but most of the time it is just background noise. it's only on very bad days were every song has to be one i know and like. i guess it really is a self defense mechanism. on my worst days i fall back on the things i really know. and maybe even get some satisfaction out of them.
i am sure i will have more to add on this question. it was something i had never really considered. sure i could just blow it off and act like i don't care. it's not my nature to do that. i don't understand it so i have to take it apart from every angle until i do. and the figure out what the answere is from there.
unrelated quote from my mother: ask your dad about the kerosene
feygrrl posed to me that i answered in this post. but then sleepsleep made a friends post about getting her new hearing aids. in which she said.."When I was walking out of the hospital today I realized that I was lucky to have a hearing loss.. if I did not have the choice of whether or not to wear my hearing aids I would be crawling out of my skin.. sensory overload. Maybe normal hearing people can tune it out, but I do not think normal hearing bipolars can tune it out. Which is why bipolars tend to freak out on their neighbors, etc. etc. etc. NOISE! NOISE! NOISE"
...and that made me start thinking that in the end that may be the reason that i always have the music going. it drowns out most of the surprise everyday noises. i can lose my self in the lyrics and forget everything else. and sure i might be a little anal* retentive about my music or something but most of the time it is just background noise. it's only on very bad days were every song has to be one i know and like. i guess it really is a self defense mechanism. on my worst days i fall back on the things i really know. and maybe even get some satisfaction out of them.
i am sure i will have more to add on this question. it was something i had never really considered. sure i could just blow it off and act like i don't care. it's not my nature to do that. i don't understand it so i have to take it apart from every angle until i do. and the figure out what the answere is from there.
unrelated quote from my mother: ask your dad about the kerosene
