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empallinas it stands i am still in the Boston area right now. i should have left this morning and didn't mostly because i slept throught it. 
mama2jude has been more than kind in putting up with me. but something is eating at me really bad and i don't know what it is. that is the reason i have not left yet. i do not really feel safe to be on my own. last night was a very bad night and i ended up crying myself to sleep after about half an hour. i am afraid if i laid down it would be more of the same tonight. to marrow morning i have to get my car fixed and a few other things so i have to go back tonight. i am putting it off by encoding a bunch of cd's i own but don't have on hand right now. and won't for a while. i am going to stop once i get to 2 gigs worth of stuff. should be enough to keep me entertained for a while. should be. i kinda let my hosts know i wasn't doing so well but i am reluctant to fully explain the whole situation. part of me is hoping they will not read this until i am gone. sorry. hopefully i will make it home in one piece.
mama2jude has been more than kind in putting up with me. but something is eating at me really bad and i don't know what it is. that is the reason i have not left yet. i do not really feel safe to be on my own. last night was a very bad night and i ended up crying myself to sleep after about half an hour. i am afraid if i laid down it would be more of the same tonight. to marrow morning i have to get my car fixed and a few other things so i have to go back tonight. i am putting it off by encoding a bunch of cd's i own but don't have on hand right now. and won't for a while. i am going to stop once i get to 2 gigs worth of stuff. should be enough to keep me entertained for a while. should be. i kinda let my hosts know i wasn't doing so well but i am reluctant to fully explain the whole situation. part of me is hoping they will not read this until i am gone. sorry. hopefully i will make it home in one piece.
