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empallini hope she fries
i'm free if that bitch dies
i better help her out
[this one is mine]
absolutely alive
walking these dark streets
while the city takes its rest
no eyes to avoid
walking these dark streets
searching for that something
hiding in shadows
walking these dark streets
just to enjoy the city's quiet
no reasons to explain
walking these dark streets
tracking down your memory
hiding in my mind
walking these busy streets
in a city that only knows life
nothing to fear
walking these busy streets
finding every moment a joy
resting in your arms
walking these dark streets
to a place i never knew
just to go to bed
absolutely alive
walking these dark streets
while the city takes its rest
no eyes to avoid
walking these dark streets
searching for that something
hiding in shadows
walking these dark streets
just to enjoy the city's quiet
no reasons to explain
walking these dark streets
tracking down your memory
hiding in my mind
walking these busy streets
in a city that only knows life
nothing to fear
walking these busy streets
finding every moment a joy
resting in your arms
walking these dark streets
to a place i never knew
just to go to bed
reckless hell
i hit just where i was aiming
[this one comes from points unknown]
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Bumper Stickers we'd like to See:
He who laughs last, thinks slowest. Everyone has a photographic memory. Some don't have film. A day without sunshine is like, well, night. On the other hand, you have different fingers. Change is inevitable, except from a vending machine. I just got lost in thought. It was unfamiliar territory. When the chips are down, the buffalo is empty. Seen it all, done it all, can't remember most of it. Those who live by the sword get shot by those who don't. I feel like I'm diagonally parked in a parallel universe He's not dead, he's electroencephalographically challenged. You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say will be misquoted, then used against you. Honk if you love peace and quiet. Despite the cost of living, have you noticed how it remains so popular? Nothing is fool-proof to a sufficiently talented fool. It is hard to understand how a cemetery raised its burial cost and blamed it on the cost of living. Just remember...if the world didn't suck, we'd all fall off. The 50-50-90 rule: Anytime you have a 50-50 chance of getting something right, there's a 90% probability you'll get it wrong. It is said that if you line up all the cars in the world end to end, someone would be stupid enough to try and pass them. You can't have everything, where would you put it? Latest survey shows that 3 out of 4 people make up 75% of the world's population. The things that come to those that wait may be the things left by those who got there first. A fine is a tax for doing wrong. A tax is a fine for doing well. It was recently discovered that research causes cancer in rats. Everybody lies, but it doesn't matter since nobody listens. I wished the buck stopped here, as I could use a few. I started out with nothing, and I still have most of it. Light travels faster than sound. This is why some people appear bright until you hear them speak
their heads went different directions
and their friendship ceased to be
someday we'll look back and laugh
[this one will remain uncredited]
isn't just stunning the kinds of things that turn up?
Subj: Re: the last blue stop note
Date: 99-11-01 22:32:50 EST
X wrote:
>
> Hey,
> I hope you you actually read this and it's not auto sent to the kill file.
Nah, precious few get the killfile.
> I just wanted to tell you I miss talking to you. I realize I am not always the
> easiest to deal with, but now I'm on meds and slowly getting better.
> You got me through some times when I never thought I would survive
> and for that alone you have my respect. I have made some serious mistakes
> but I suppose I was not right in the head. Maybe I'm still not, but I am trying.
And I'm happy that I made some kind of positive difference in your life, as you did in mine. You're responsible, directly or indirectly, for some of the most formative events of my adolescent and post-adolescent life, and don't think I don't know that. We did really fucking cool things together, and I wouldn't have missed them for the world.
And you *did* make some serious mistakes. And on one level, I'm still really angry about some of them. They didn't really affect me directly, but I was disappointed and disgusted with some of the choices you made.
> I really miss having you in my life and I would not be surprised that after
> all I put you through that you finally gave up and walked away.
You can't take this personally, as stupid as that sounds: I came to a very simple decision in the wake of my split with Y and the really messy conclusion to all of that, and that was that no matter how much good there is sometimes in a relationship with someone, be it a friendship or something else, sometimes the bad can be worse. I came to a point where I realized that for as many problems as some of the people in my life had, I couldn't be there for them anymore. It wasn't just you by any means. I was, and to some degree still am, at a point where I couldn't handle everyone elses' pain and needs and problems anymore. What you need or want, I can't give, as much because of the demands that I place on myself as what you want from me. And it might be petty or juvenile, but I think you and Y have much more in common with each other than with me, and she's emphatically not going to be part of my life ever again. I can't have any loose ends there, not and stay sane and healthy. I still have your art in my room, and I know it's your art, and I remember the things we did and places we went together as something really good, and there's no reason to be ashamed or sad about *that.* Sometimes people go their separate ways, and while it's natural and okay to be sad about it, nothing lasts forever. Remember what we did...the zines, Toejam & Earl, Denny's, trips to Missouri, and, like me, be grateful it happened, because it might never have, and that would have been much worse. Don't be sad it ended, be happy it happened at all.
> I just wanted to let you know. Or try to. There is so much that should be here that just
> can't because the words just don't exist.
You have. Believe me, you have. I wouldn't have traded knowing you for anything, good and bad. Now go live a life that would make me envious and please *learn* from your mistakes.
I love you too...
-Z
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"You use the word 'issues' in connection with me again and I'll kill your children."
- Garth Ennis, "Preacher."
--------------------------------------------------
isn't just stunning the kinds of things that turn up?
Subj: Re: the last blue stop note
Date: 99-11-01 22:32:50 EST
X wrote:
>
> Hey,
> I hope you you actually read this and it's not auto sent to the kill file.
Nah, precious few get the killfile.
> I just wanted to tell you I miss talking to you. I realize I am not always the
> easiest to deal with, but now I'm on meds and slowly getting better.
> You got me through some times when I never thought I would survive
> and for that alone you have my respect. I have made some serious mistakes
> but I suppose I was not right in the head. Maybe I'm still not, but I am trying.
And I'm happy that I made some kind of positive difference in your life, as you did in mine. You're responsible, directly or indirectly, for some of the most formative events of my adolescent and post-adolescent life, and don't think I don't know that. We did really fucking cool things together, and I wouldn't have missed them for the world.
And you *did* make some serious mistakes. And on one level, I'm still really angry about some of them. They didn't really affect me directly, but I was disappointed and disgusted with some of the choices you made.
> I really miss having you in my life and I would not be surprised that after
> all I put you through that you finally gave up and walked away.
You can't take this personally, as stupid as that sounds: I came to a very simple decision in the wake of my split with Y and the really messy conclusion to all of that, and that was that no matter how much good there is sometimes in a relationship with someone, be it a friendship or something else, sometimes the bad can be worse. I came to a point where I realized that for as many problems as some of the people in my life had, I couldn't be there for them anymore. It wasn't just you by any means. I was, and to some degree still am, at a point where I couldn't handle everyone elses' pain and needs and problems anymore. What you need or want, I can't give, as much because of the demands that I place on myself as what you want from me. And it might be petty or juvenile, but I think you and Y have much more in common with each other than with me, and she's emphatically not going to be part of my life ever again. I can't have any loose ends there, not and stay sane and healthy. I still have your art in my room, and I know it's your art, and I remember the things we did and places we went together as something really good, and there's no reason to be ashamed or sad about *that.* Sometimes people go their separate ways, and while it's natural and okay to be sad about it, nothing lasts forever. Remember what we did...the zines, Toejam & Earl, Denny's, trips to Missouri, and, like me, be grateful it happened, because it might never have, and that would have been much worse. Don't be sad it ended, be happy it happened at all.
> I just wanted to let you know. Or try to. There is so much that should be here that just
> can't because the words just don't exist.
You have. Believe me, you have. I wouldn't have traded knowing you for anything, good and bad. Now go live a life that would make me envious and please *learn* from your mistakes.
I love you too...
-Z
--------------------------------------------------
"You use the word 'issues' in connection with me again and I'll kill your children."
- Garth Ennis, "Preacher."
--------------------------------------------------
i've been true to this shit
giving my heart and soul
[this one comes from a magazine]
my mom sent me this magazine clipping and i thought i would try to answer the questions it poses....
You've Come A Long Way, BabyYou've done a lot of great things in your life, but that's hard to remember when you get into a rut. Remind yourself of life's sweetest moments by asking yourself the following:
1.] What's the most difficult thing you've ever done?
going back to school and then having to get out again. next time i am going to get it done and done right.
2.] What three things would you do if you only had six months to live?
spend as much time with friends and family as possible. travel as much as possible. wonder how my doctor discovered his psychic abilities.
3.] List the five people you respect and admire the most?
i can't answer this. each person has as many reasons to be admired and respected as to not be. have to look for the good in everybody and all that schtuff. keeps us all on the same level.
4.] Name the three recent accomplisments of which you are most proud?
i know no pride. i can't fake it that well either. it is about time that i started working on my books, but i wouldn't say that i am proud of it. admitting some things that i never have before, but that's just really screwed up. i don't know.
5.] Describe the happiest day of your life.
a day in my life that has been happy? is that some kind of sick joke? i have had a lot of happy days that ended up being completely screwed up. other's that i thought were horrible that ended being a very positive experience.
6.] What's the most beautiful thing you've ever seen?
more of the same. there is beauty in things seem ugly from a distance. the same way that some things that apear beautiful are in the end very ugly.
vague as they may seem, those are my answers.
my mom sent me this magazine clipping and i thought i would try to answer the questions it poses....
You've Come A Long Way, BabyYou've done a lot of great things in your life, but that's hard to remember when you get into a rut. Remind yourself of life's sweetest moments by asking yourself the following:
1.] What's the most difficult thing you've ever done?
going back to school and then having to get out again. next time i am going to get it done and done right.
2.] What three things would you do if you only had six months to live?
spend as much time with friends and family as possible. travel as much as possible. wonder how my doctor discovered his psychic abilities.
3.] List the five people you respect and admire the most?
i can't answer this. each person has as many reasons to be admired and respected as to not be. have to look for the good in everybody and all that schtuff. keeps us all on the same level.
4.] Name the three recent accomplisments of which you are most proud?
i know no pride. i can't fake it that well either. it is about time that i started working on my books, but i wouldn't say that i am proud of it. admitting some things that i never have before, but that's just really screwed up. i don't know.
5.] Describe the happiest day of your life.
a day in my life that has been happy? is that some kind of sick joke? i have had a lot of happy days that ended up being completely screwed up. other's that i thought were horrible that ended being a very positive experience.
6.] What's the most beautiful thing you've ever seen?
more of the same. there is beauty in things seem ugly from a distance. the same way that some things that apear beautiful are in the end very ugly.
vague as they may seem, those are my answers.
anyway get me a ticket for an areoplane
ain't got time to take a fast train
[this one is just some random bitching]
those that know me know that i have a lot of music. unfortunately a lot of it is not in my possesion. i was in the mood to hear some songs. things i own and some in several formats. unfortunately those songs are not sitting on my computer. dammit. some of what i was wanting to hear was...
wall of voodoo - mexican radio (but i do have a cover of it so it's not so bad) tori amos - enjoy the silence (mike said i should listen to it) don henley - boys of summer brain adams - summer of '69 cindy lee berryhill - who's gonna save the world hank williams - your cheatin' heart rem - it's the end of the world black flag - six pack black flag - louie louie milchelle shocked - short sharp shocked (album) roger manning - 1010 halfler trio - (anything) greenday - long view
there are probably ten more that i can't think of now. this sucks. i have to get out of here quickly. GRRRRRR.
why isn't there a way to make lj-cut posts open in a new window? a lot of people don't click on them in viewing their friends page. i know i usually don't. i always try make sure the links i post open in a new window because it makes makes it easier to go back to where you were. but as far as i know it can't be done with lj cut posts. and how about a way to put counter on while we are at it? i mean is that really so much to ask? these things are just annoying. it just seesms funny when people get too pissed at stuff like this.
"you're hanging out with us now, buddy. dignity's got nothing to do with it." - ice age
those that know me know that i have a lot of music. unfortunately a lot of it is not in my possesion. i was in the mood to hear some songs. things i own and some in several formats. unfortunately those songs are not sitting on my computer. dammit. some of what i was wanting to hear was...
wall of voodoo - mexican radio (but i do have a cover of it so it's not so bad) tori amos - enjoy the silence (mike said i should listen to it) don henley - boys of summer brain adams - summer of '69 cindy lee berryhill - who's gonna save the world hank williams - your cheatin' heart rem - it's the end of the world black flag - six pack black flag - louie louie milchelle shocked - short sharp shocked (album) roger manning - 1010 halfler trio - (anything) greenday - long view
there are probably ten more that i can't think of now. this sucks. i have to get out of here quickly. GRRRRRR.
why isn't there a way to make lj-cut posts open in a new window? a lot of people don't click on them in viewing their friends page. i know i usually don't. i always try make sure the links i post open in a new window because it makes makes it easier to go back to where you were. but as far as i know it can't be done with lj cut posts. and how about a way to put counter on while we are at it? i mean is that really so much to ask? these things are just annoying. it just seesms funny when people get too pissed at stuff like this.
"you're hanging out with us now, buddy. dignity's got nothing to do with it." - ice age
