just a scratch

[empallin]

what i miss most about us being together
is taste of you skin
the smell the touch
the hours spent
your head resting on my arm
writing secret messages
across your back
gently with my finger tips
that little smile you would get
as you figured out the message
the hours spent
drawing pictures in you skin
scratched in with my finger nail
exploring every inch of you body
knowing by site and feel
every dimple scar wrinkle muscle
every inch that tickles or hurts
and at what pressure
caressing fresh bruises
like a proud new owner
the way you smell
excited and exhausted
as the bouquet of scents
hangs in the air like a spring fog
sweat blood cum hormones tears
what i miss most about us being together
is laying next to you
looking at you
waiting for the blood to dry
where you have so proudly
marked your territory
scratches on top of scars
having to use dark sheets
to hide the blood stains
we try to wash out each morning
looking at the scars you left me
your name and a heart
cut with fingernail
just as i left you
i miss the simple ways
we could get each other excited
a look a whisper a kiss
but always as a promise
not a tease
the little pieces of rope
that litter the room
cut from your body
the way you would carry a piece
as a reminder
to pick up some more
and that smile you get
each time you open your purse
i miss these quite
moments of calmness
with an aftertaste
of two of us as one