you had a way so familiar but I could not recognize cause you had blood on your face

you don't have to talk
you don't even live here

some of the recent quotes i have gotten from boogle...

"We can never tell what is in store for us." — Harry S Truman
"It is the nature of desire not to be satisfied, and most men live only for the gratification of it." — Aristotle
"They say a person needs just three things to be truly happy in this world: someone to love, something to do, and something to hope for." — Tom Bodett
"There are no speed limits on the road to excellence." — David W Johnson
"What is a friend? A single soul dwelling in two bodies." — Aristotle
"Nothing great in politics, poetry, or the arts has ever been achieved by anyone without a melancholic temperament." — Aristotle

and some other quotes that i came across that i find interesting...

"Just because something doesn't do what you planned it to do doesn't mean it's useless." — Thomas Edison
"Results! Why, man, I have gotten a lot of results. I know several thousand things that won't work." — Thomas Edison
"There's a way to do it better - find it." — Thomas Edison
"To be nobody-but-yourself - in a world which is doing its best night and day to make you everybody else - means to fight the hardest battle any human being can fight; and never stop fighting." — e.e. cummings
"Trust, like the soul, never returns once it is gone." — Publilius Syrus
"The best way to have a good idea is to have a lot of ideas." — Dr. Linus Pauling
"Many a man fails as an original thinker simply because his memory is too good." — Friedrich Nietzsche
"Don't worry about people stealing your ideas. If your ideas are any good, you'll have to ram them down people's throats." — Howard Aiken

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i ask for a little
but i want more

info off random scraps of paper
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but i just can't afford to feed it
and you should see the way it shits

here's some links for some of the things that you might enjoy if you are ever in the area. of course i haven't been to most of them because that would mean that i would have money to spend. it would also mean that i would have to leave the house. bob forbid. i might add some more once i get around to finding the links and such. any way here you go...

odd-lot outlet superstore _=*^*=_ the pococno indian museum and gift shop _=*^*=_ the edelweiss _=*^*=_ pococno mountians value inn _=*^*=_ ramada limited tannersville _=*^*=_ vf outlet village _=*^*=_ fernwood hotel and resort _=*^*=_ bushkill falls _=*^*=_ east stroudsburg university _=*^*=_ the mountain laurel learning center for the performing arts _=*^*=_ pocono mountains information _=*^*=_ pocono play park _=*^*=_ claws 'n' paws wild animal park _=*^*=_ holley ross pottery _=*^*=_ the best of the poconos _=*^*=_ jack frost and big boulder _=*^*=_ arts in the poconos _=*^*=_ pocono state craft festival _=*^*=_ anna's classy lingerie _=*^*=_ pocono bizarre _=*^*=_ Eastern Monroe Public Library _=*^*=_ the broom closet

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i also told you i like to bite
i guess it's oblious i also like to write

random ka-rap...
if you watch king of the hill, you should watch it with the closed captioning on, assuming your tv supports it. there is one line in each episode that is either not actually said or is completely different then what is said. has to be intentional. just watch and you'll see.

what do men and blenders have in common? you keep one around because you think you might use it one day

i need to call and thank susan brown host of wbai's punk and hardcore show. she was nice enough to play a couple of flipper songs for me the other night, which was enough to get me home. gotta get away.

i finally agreed on the name trixie for my computer. speed, are you all right? fits all the needed and desired requirements.

i am crossing my fingers in hopes that mama2jude assembles a nice little package for me while she is working her con job. i really wanted to go to that thing but money would not allow. on the other hand, the only cons i have been to are, uh, hacker ones. even worked at the last one...and all i got was this lousy t-shirt and badge. funny since i know almost nothing about hacking or computers. or anything for that matter. maybe i find a different kind of con to go to this year. i would like them better if not fo all the people.

the word count on the current story tops 7000. i am so sorry. i am not even close to done with it. it is however getting ready to go into the next portion. also i need to not that i originally said there would be three jennifers appearing in it. that is wrong since there will actually be four. and if you have jumped to the chase, it should also be noted that six people get shot in it. i never said it was a fun or pretty story. it does interesting twists to it.

it's one of my rules...deny everything. even if the saw you do it and have video tape. deny it. and never ride with any one that's not wearing their seatbelt.

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let's go dancing
on the backs of the bruised

the paste of
a new set rules
for how it's done
and what is allowed
down on your knees
because you want to be
or because you were told
did you say it
did you have to ask
for the punishment
of the pain you'll receive
did you get permission
just to ask
if you could say what you want
if you can speak
are you comfortable
and unable to move
no one needs to know
just be quiet
and do not tell

if i walk down this hallway tonight it's too quiet 006

the one big thing Chris did before he quit was help us out with some information. he had heard from his sources that the major supplier was going to be coming up from Dallas. he was also planning on coming to the club. so we had some quick but firm words passed between all of us that night. bag checks and pat downs were going to get down hard and heavy that night, no matter how far the door got backed up. we had no idea who we were looking for so everyone got a taste of it. we were not going to fuck around until the issue played itself out. so the proceeded with an air of tension. we were doing more frequent walk arounds. we made sure security and the regulars that we trusted all knew what was going on. then about halfway into the night my girlfriend, Jennifer-2, comes up to us and told us that the guy had made it into the club and where he is. so i took off for a walk around with the plan on locating him. this had the chance of putting too many people in danger so we were trying to be discreet as possible. i saw the person that was the prime suspect wasn't sure enough or bold enough to say anything. so i went back to my post to discuss the situation a little more. Mikey decided he was going to take care of it. it was rare that some got a pat down after they had been admitted but Mikey was usually the one that did it. as he was heading off it was suggested that he take a security guard with him. so once we found one the two of them went off on this little quest.

it was very tense until the three of them came walking back up front. the security guard continued out the door with him while the police were called. after that was taken care of we started quizzing Mikey about finding anything. he just nodded his head as he put a film canister on the counter. i went nuts at that point because as hard as we were checking, we should have definitely inspected a film canister. of course things like that past people who do searches for a living and we were basically amatuers. as Mikey is explaining the details, i open it up to have a look. the guy had either gotten rid of a lot already or very little because the canister was completely full. i start going off about how that is a lot of money there and how maybe we chose the wrong profession. i was reminded why that was not such a good argument when the security guard yelled for Mikey to go outside because the cops were there. i followed him out because i wanted to see how this ended. i was pretty proud of what we had done. then i had to go back inside because people were coming in. eventually Mikey and the security guard got everything wrapped up and came back inside. it was suddenly looking like it might be a good night. our concern for the night was taken care of and the people who had shown up just to buy all left pretty quickly. and i hope the door hit every one of them on the way out. then tom came in to give us a lecture. he never told us any way the situation could have been handled better. he just explained that we should have not called the cops because it could quickly turn into bad publicity, as well as legal troubles, for the club. with the curfew laws in effect there were enough troubles. that added on top of the fact that a lot of people were not at all happy with the nature of the clubs, and things could have gone from bad to worse in a hurry.

the next day i told Mikey i thought we should have made a few of them disappear. if the cops hadn't been called we could have made them all disappear. i had never tried ecstasy and would never pay to, but i would have had no problems if it were free. i always had the belief that i would try everything once. as long as there was not any money involved. i never said it was the smart choice, but it was a personal thing. Mikey's responded with a bunch of smartass comments about not really wanting to see me that screwed up and happy, but definitely considered the financial point of view. if we had taken them all, we knew enough people that would have no problem paying our reduced price and keeping there mouth shut about where they came from. i have always been screwed up enough and had enough troubles to go around with out getting drugs involved, so it was not really an issue. in the end it is probably best that non of it happened that way because of all the negative possibilities. after we finished with that conversation we did a little bitching about Tom's lecture. it wasn't anything serious since we were used to getting lecture about one thing or another. we ran the club like we owned it but we were no angels.