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i have made several references to this before but i want to explain a little better. most of you are familiar with the game six degrees of Kevin Bacon. i don't really know that many people but it seems that the people i know tighten the circle so that for some odd reason the is only two degrees between me and way too many people. i generally accept that anyone i meet knows at least one other person that i know. this was one of the original reasons i left Oklahoma City. i was tired of not being able to meet someone new with out the being able to quickly get a biased opinion of me. maybe some of those opinions were good but i am pretty sure that most were not. i actually drew out a map in one of my notebooks once detailing how each person i admitted to knowing, and even called a friend, knew one or more of the others. in the end it got so complicated that it kind of scared me. i thought if i left, it would stop. no such luck and i should have known better.
some of the people on my friends list are good examples of this odd situation. i have talked to
mskoi online for a good number of years. in going through her website i happen to notice the photographer credit on some of the pictures of her art work. the pictures were taken by mark17 who i had hung out with a number of times while in Oklahoma. i always thought he was one of the cooler people i ever knew. this also leads me to believe that she might be familiar with one of my ex-girlfriends that ended up in the same area. i really don't want to know. now to make things even better, one of the few people i have talked to a lot recentetly, alism, knows him very well. as she used to date Scott for sometime and was still around after that.
i actually had a discussion sometime ago about this withmama2jude, that started when we were talking about how her huusband, Tim, went to college with my good friend Steve L. Steve once said that i was going to meet someone that was just going to go 'oh so you're allin,' and then tell me right off the bat part of my life story. this was reinforced by imbecilemikeywhen he passed on a message from his sister. she had just moved back to Oklahoma and was getting frustrated because of this situation. she had asked him if there was fucking anybody in that town that i didn't know. i am sure that i do not know a lot of them but that may change once i move back. as the circle tightens, so it also widens. i have had several instances where i could not remember the person that i was being told about. these are just a few but i could go on and on with examples of both aspects, and i am not the only one.
it is because of this whole thing that i have to keep my stories honest. if i make a mistake, i am pretty sure that i will eventually hear about it. it also helps me keep tabs on certain people without having to talk to them. this is also one of the reasons that i do not use my real name online. i get tired of this happening so much, and the internet is so much bigger. of course, if you used a popular search engine to do the right search, you could find out my real name. i have used to same user id for so many years and so many things. it was not until recently that i started to realize that who i know could help me, as much as it can hurt me. this is part of what gives me hope that if i get some of my projects done, i can get them out to the world. sure i do that some here but i am talking about so many other things.
i do have my theories on why this happens. my main theories is that i, and my closest friends, am prone to making friends with people that are doers. people that get things done, or at least try. in getting these things done it forces them to have contact with others, and gets the attention of other people. none of us are ones that are happy just sitting still. this also puts a lot of resources within reach of those connected. there used to be website that tried to push this hand, but their idea of how to work the concept was as flawed as the interest in it. i have trouble just asking friends for certain things without being able to pay. if i get to the point where i can, i know i will have no trouble getting what i need. and if i ever break, i will not be the only one going up. then there is going to be a huge fucking party. and yeah i could put two weak connections between me and Kevin Bacon. weak but still there. i should have just accepted this a long time ago, instead of wasting time running from it. i'm just waiting for the day when my work preceeds me.
some of the people on my friends list are good examples of this odd situation. i have talked to
mskoi online for a good number of years. in going through her website i happen to notice the photographer credit on some of the pictures of her art work. the pictures were taken by mark17 who i had hung out with a number of times while in Oklahoma. i always thought he was one of the cooler people i ever knew. this also leads me to believe that she might be familiar with one of my ex-girlfriends that ended up in the same area. i really don't want to know. now to make things even better, one of the few people i have talked to a lot recentetly, alism, knows him very well. as she used to date Scott for sometime and was still around after that. i actually had a discussion sometime ago about this with
mama2jude, that started when we were talking about how her huusband, Tim, went to college with my good friend Steve L. Steve once said that i was going to meet someone that was just going to go 'oh so you're allin,' and then tell me right off the bat part of my life story. this was reinforced by imbecilemikeywhen he passed on a message from his sister. she had just moved back to Oklahoma and was getting frustrated because of this situation. she had asked him if there was fucking anybody in that town that i didn't know. i am sure that i do not know a lot of them but that may change once i move back. as the circle tightens, so it also widens. i have had several instances where i could not remember the person that i was being told about. these are just a few but i could go on and on with examples of both aspects, and i am not the only one.it is because of this whole thing that i have to keep my stories honest. if i make a mistake, i am pretty sure that i will eventually hear about it. it also helps me keep tabs on certain people without having to talk to them. this is also one of the reasons that i do not use my real name online. i get tired of this happening so much, and the internet is so much bigger. of course, if you used a popular search engine to do the right search, you could find out my real name. i have used to same user id for so many years and so many things. it was not until recently that i started to realize that who i know could help me, as much as it can hurt me. this is part of what gives me hope that if i get some of my projects done, i can get them out to the world. sure i do that some here but i am talking about so many other things.
i do have my theories on why this happens. my main theories is that i, and my closest friends, am prone to making friends with people that are doers. people that get things done, or at least try. in getting these things done it forces them to have contact with others, and gets the attention of other people. none of us are ones that are happy just sitting still. this also puts a lot of resources within reach of those connected. there used to be website that tried to push this hand, but their idea of how to work the concept was as flawed as the interest in it. i have trouble just asking friends for certain things without being able to pay. if i get to the point where i can, i know i will have no trouble getting what i need. and if i ever break, i will not be the only one going up. then there is going to be a huge fucking party. and yeah i could put two weak connections between me and Kevin Bacon. weak but still there. i should have just accepted this a long time ago, instead of wasting time running from it. i'm just waiting for the day when my work preceeds me.
