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empallini really need to sit my aunts down so they can give me lessons on crochet and knitting. of course i should also sit myself down for pinning and tucking lessons. maybe i need to get some cat eye glasses join one of those circle things. target sponsers those things dont they? now why would i want to do any of that you ask? two very simple reasons. 1] as a distraction from my mind that would have me sitting still. B] because i dont know how to do it. the challange of learning and doing something new is what makes it all worth it.
related but seperate...i got most of my fair entries in. photos, sweatshirt, collection, antique toy, decorated eggs. the decorated shoe is not in but those go in the first sunday of the fair. do i know what i am doing with any of it? no not really but thats never stopped me before. there was supposed to be more but family deaths and the adventures with lake poopykaka killed a lot of the time that was supposed to go to that and vincaville. now a letter from the city saying paint your house. yeah that was suppose to happen in june but the month of rain killed that idea. and the boards never got dry enough to do. then i had the wrong paint. and now its been raining again. so i have to call and ask for an extention due to weather.
one of the things i had planned to enter was lye soap but since i have never done it and thus have not practiced i will have to try for that one next years. maybe i can get some lessons on that as well. aside from the above reasons this one has some addtional reasons for doing. if done right it is suppose to be good for psoriasis treatment and i happen to know someone who could use some of that kind of help. since i am not allowed to have explosives firearms or bolt cutters anything that has me having to mess around with caustic chemicals sounds like fun to me.
of course one of if not the best parts of any of this is that it is something i can do with little or no interaction with people. my time. my terms. my problems. but what about this? well with this none of you are real. none of you are sitting here while i am writing and i am not sitting there as you read it and laugh at what a dumbass i am. so by that it is all fair. the fact that i barely maintain contact with the most of you that i actually know helps as well. its a nice little bubble i am in. yeah i know i sucks as a friend as much as i suck as a person but for now i am still here. the things of these that i can do without actually having to ask anyone anything really help. "bob" bless the cursed internet. i really hate asking for help on anything because i feel like i am just getting in the person way that i am asking. except the people who piss me off but i wont ask them because they pissed me off and i have no faith in thier answers. no matter how right they may be. this is why my entries to the fair almost didnt get done. it meant dealing with people. do i expect to win? not a damn thing. but i entered and that to me is winning enough.
"you tried your best and you failed miserably. The lesson is never try." - homer j simpson
related but seperate...i got most of my fair entries in. photos, sweatshirt, collection, antique toy, decorated eggs. the decorated shoe is not in but those go in the first sunday of the fair. do i know what i am doing with any of it? no not really but thats never stopped me before. there was supposed to be more but family deaths and the adventures with lake poopykaka killed a lot of the time that was supposed to go to that and vincaville. now a letter from the city saying paint your house. yeah that was suppose to happen in june but the month of rain killed that idea. and the boards never got dry enough to do. then i had the wrong paint. and now its been raining again. so i have to call and ask for an extention due to weather.
one of the things i had planned to enter was lye soap but since i have never done it and thus have not practiced i will have to try for that one next years. maybe i can get some lessons on that as well. aside from the above reasons this one has some addtional reasons for doing. if done right it is suppose to be good for psoriasis treatment and i happen to know someone who could use some of that kind of help. since i am not allowed to have explosives firearms or bolt cutters anything that has me having to mess around with caustic chemicals sounds like fun to me.
of course one of if not the best parts of any of this is that it is something i can do with little or no interaction with people. my time. my terms. my problems. but what about this? well with this none of you are real. none of you are sitting here while i am writing and i am not sitting there as you read it and laugh at what a dumbass i am. so by that it is all fair. the fact that i barely maintain contact with the most of you that i actually know helps as well. its a nice little bubble i am in. yeah i know i sucks as a friend as much as i suck as a person but for now i am still here. the things of these that i can do without actually having to ask anyone anything really help. "bob" bless the cursed internet. i really hate asking for help on anything because i feel like i am just getting in the person way that i am asking. except the people who piss me off but i wont ask them because they pissed me off and i have no faith in thier answers. no matter how right they may be. this is why my entries to the fair almost didnt get done. it meant dealing with people. do i expect to win? not a damn thing. but i entered and that to me is winning enough.
"you tried your best and you failed miserably. The lesson is never try." - homer j simpson
