he wasn't good enough for her

[empallin]

I love Debi But yeah, hi, it's not working. I don't know what to do. I am not in my right mind and really cannot judge what would be the best option. I have been trying to keep myself busy with other thoughts just to keep from thinking about it. I do know that no matter what choice is made she will end up hating me. If she doesn't already. I would really like to work the situation out but I really don't think that is possible. It would require counseling which she has stated very self assured that she would not do. That and there was nothing wrong with her. I did agree. But who am I to judge? From my point of view it is a bad situation that will only get worse. And I am in desparate need of meds. Mothers little helper. But that should come on wednesday. Now I have to find someone to pick me up from the hospital on thursday after my shot. This whole situation sucks more than anything in my life has ever sucked. I am already mental, do I really need help going over the edge to the point of no return. And to make it even better there is no one near by that I would consider to be a friend. So I just sit and suck and try to keep breathing.