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empallini think the world as officially started crumbling around me. i set my mother up with her own little lj account. now let's see if she actually uses it the way i recommended that she should. to communicate with people and to learn a few things along the way. mostly i want ther to learn some of the basics of html. she's a smart cookie. if she tries she will actually be able to do it. you should add her to encourage her to actually work on it. and comment all to hell.
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so mikey recommended this band called the blood group that he heard somewhere. i think he pulled that out of his ass. it is such a generic name that i am having trouble finding anything by or about them. i should just give up but that is not in my nature. though as thing have been going for the past few years it just might be. i mean i can count the number of bands i have seen live since 97 on one hand. and half of those were ones where i just went along for the ride not because i had any interest in seeing another band in another cramped hall. used to be i would never drink beer at shows for i was there to enjoy the music not to get drunk. but that has also seemingly gone the way the wind blows. those that know me know that i would do what had to be done to see a band i wanted to. sometimes even only slightly. now i don't even care. maybe it's social anxiety. maybe i am just that jaded and burt out. maybe it's the depression. i don't know.
what i do know is that it is also visable in other aspects as well. when i go online i am not spending hours sitting in front of the computer like i used to. i check my email and my lj friends page and maybe make updates to my site but that is about it. sometimes i will harrass allis or salem but that is pretty rare of late. i never really want to be doing anything that i am doing. you know how hard it is to write a movie review when you can't even sit through an entire movie. or do houshold tips while sitting in a house that is a mess. sure the meds are suppose to help this stuff a little but it is just not happening. oh well enough whining...
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so mikey recommended this band called the blood group that he heard somewhere. i think he pulled that out of his ass. it is such a generic name that i am having trouble finding anything by or about them. i should just give up but that is not in my nature. though as thing have been going for the past few years it just might be. i mean i can count the number of bands i have seen live since 97 on one hand. and half of those were ones where i just went along for the ride not because i had any interest in seeing another band in another cramped hall. used to be i would never drink beer at shows for i was there to enjoy the music not to get drunk. but that has also seemingly gone the way the wind blows. those that know me know that i would do what had to be done to see a band i wanted to. sometimes even only slightly. now i don't even care. maybe it's social anxiety. maybe i am just that jaded and burt out. maybe it's the depression. i don't know.
what i do know is that it is also visable in other aspects as well. when i go online i am not spending hours sitting in front of the computer like i used to. i check my email and my lj friends page and maybe make updates to my site but that is about it. sometimes i will harrass allis or salem but that is pretty rare of late. i never really want to be doing anything that i am doing. you know how hard it is to write a movie review when you can't even sit through an entire movie. or do houshold tips while sitting in a house that is a mess. sure the meds are suppose to help this stuff a little but it is just not happening. oh well enough whining...
