[khg] i was tired

[empallin]

i asked my high school sweet heart to marry me
she said no
both of them
without a second thought
or a moment of hesitation
and ended up with a foul weather friend
and a bell that rarely rings
i broke the heart of an angel
and of a saint
tarnished their souls
a little more bitter to the touch
i survived a marriage
that never should have happened
but it would be a lie
to say i survived unscathed
i sat in the dark
crying to myself
yelling at the world
trying to remain strong
losing hope
and trying again

i want to believe in love an romance
and the dreams that come to life
i want to remain open to the idea
that some day it might happen
some days it is easier that others