how the cards always fall

how the cards always fall
by allin khg

welcome to my world
a glorious house of cards
rebuilt so perfectly each time
standing so tall and proud
until my heart tells my hands
to pull the cards from the bottom
until someone says
its blocking their view
until its too close to being perfect
and cant take it anymore
swinging at the cards
in anger and fear
what if it is perfect
what if it is finished
what if it holds the answer to my problem
i cant stand to know
so i tear it down
stomping on the cards
letting them all fall
flying through the air
crying as i watch
it cant be perfect
it cant last forever
my heart tells my mind it made the right choice
but when my mind questions this logic
and my heart and i drop down to the floor
crying as we collect the cards
scared of being so close
scared it happened all over again
collecting the cards
to start building again
thinking and hoping
someday the mind will win before its too late
instead of letting the heart
sabotage it all again
someday it will all work out
there will be mo bridges burned
there will be no bonfires of memories