hey man you know im really okay the gun in my hand will tell you the same

jemimabean
Here are the rules
(1) Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
(2) People who are tagged need to write a post on their own blog (about their eight things) and post these rules.
(3) At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
(4) Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog

1] i say the fucking f-word a lot. words are words. and if if that offends you well...you know whats coming dont you...wait a little more...fuck if i fucking care.

2]  i have had some pretty good ideas and projects along the way that could have very likely gotten me back out of this shit whole. yes most of my ideas are complete and utter shit like pretty much every thing i do [present company excluded] but then...

3] i apparently have an odd sort of fear of success. if i know its a sure thing i will just talk about it. if its a long shot i will pour my heart and soul into and then give up on it when it looks like it might actually go somewhere. its not something i intentionally do but looking at things it is a definite pattern. some day i might make it but only if the shit blows up before i can crash and burn it. for example...

4] at one point i seriously considered starting a porn site with quality. this was in 97-98 ish when things were a lot easier but more expensive. if i had done it and put a little effort into it to keep it going it would have either made it or been bought out. i could still do it but its a [sorry] harder market to slip into now a days. no i am not saying its a sure thing but its pretty close.

5] i have been offered jobs based on previous experience. pulling off doing zine crap for 10 years apparently does hold some weight in some circle. among other things. but i dont push the offers because of number 3 or because i am not the person these people want. sure i could do the job they offer but i really dont think they could handle me. but then who can?

6] i hate living in oklahoma and really have no intention of staying here. its not that its a bad place its just [as i have said before] too small of a place for me to die in. things need to start shifting in my favor pretty quick or it may be too late.

7] i am using lyrics by a band none of you have ever heard of because it pretty much sums it up i know you already know this but and cant help
"how im this close to cashing in
how i chase dreams that dont exist
how i hate girls and i hate my life
the pain that rips me tears me ruins me"

8] i write all these stupid songs in my head that get stuck there for a week or so and then never fucking get commited to paper or whatever so i lose them forever.  i am so fucking cool for doing that kinda shit. or not.

and tag your it...azhure, theliar, dylanklebold, ninthraven, anarkallisti, moxie_murder, mad-scientist-x, cortezthekiller, baybeejami
and maybe one of you will actually do it.

9] bonus! we got power back today. now i get to spend two days chopping up trees. fuck yeah i get to play with the chainsaw again.