he was pure rock n roll chaos in his soul

well the funeral was pretty typical drama for my family.

i had been joking that it being my family it would not be surprising if someone showed up in a t-shirt. well at least one person did. I was not however expecting to see one of my cousins show up in handcuffs. oops.

my grandmother had to find out her oldest son had died by reading my grandfathers obit. apparently my uncles wife didn't feel the need to tell anyone in our family that he had passed some years ago.

admittedly it was standing room only in the church and the procession was a good few blocks long but i kinda felt there should have been more flowers there. but my gradfather would have been proud of how much traffic he blocked up.

my grandfather was buried in the same cemetary as his parents so several people went to look-see and/or show respect there. then someone noticed that if birth year was correct on the head stone my great-grandmother would have had her first kid at the age of eight. i know this is oklahoma and all but still...no.

my knee is still hurting from making the drive but i consider that a fair trade for all things considered.

thank you for the condolences left in the comments to my previous post. it means a lot to me. as much as it does suck it is not that bad because well it was expected and this coming sunday would have been his 93rd birthday.

beautiful girl lovely dress where she is now i can only guess

clearing some stuff out of my head....

yeah. more meds for the allin. so welbutrin xl gets added to the mix. and the depakote gets upped to 1500 mg a day. so now i am at a minimum of ten pills a day. then if i take anything for back pain or whatever else it goes up from there. my liver has to be loving me of so much. anyone want some of this fun?
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i want to run my fingers
down your spine
past your behind
down your thighs
and make you mine

i want to be nothing
but a dream
so serene
make you creme
until you scream
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stupid idea for a tech commercial
setting prefab diner
waitress: what can i do for you hun?
tired looking business guy: a coffee and a large network. server side up.
voice over: if only it were that simple.
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i was going to right something for that girl. allston rocking zine queen. one of those people where an instant connection was made. too cute for words even. i am sure i could never be her type. she could be mine but she would always be too busy. just good friends. the kind you always just run into. no need to hang out or set dates because you always end up in the same places at the same time. one of those friends that always seems to have more friends than time. one of those friends that always seems to have an extra smile on hand. but all of that was a long time ago. and i still haven't written that thing i was going to. and to make it even worse i can't even remember her name.