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found her in her palor
and i tied her to her chair
i wanna play, so we are going to play. repeat out loud after me...
i shot the city sherrif i shot the city sherrif i shot the city sherrif i shot the city sherrif i shot the city sherrif i shot the city sherrif
polish it in the corner polish it in the corner polish it in the corner polish it in the corner polish it in the corner
happiness happiness happiness happiness happiness
{stick out your tounge sushi} my mom's purse is on the table
...arn't kids joke's fun. so what did you come up with? you should have ended up with shitty shit penis puss. sounds like anal sex to me. ok, you can laugh now. or do you want more?
Q: how do you scare flying insects? A: boo bees!
Q: what did the mayonaise say to the refridgerator? A: close the door. i'm dressing.
you're still not laughing. ok, one more. i made this one up when i was four years old. my mother and grandmother were telling jokes and i wanted to play so this is what i came up with...
Q: why did the clock run up the wall? A: because it didn't want to get hung.
i shot the city sherrif i shot the city sherrif i shot the city sherrif i shot the city sherrif i shot the city sherrif i shot the city sherrif
polish it in the corner polish it in the corner polish it in the corner polish it in the corner polish it in the corner
happiness happiness happiness happiness happiness
{stick out your tounge sushi} my mom's purse is on the table
...arn't kids joke's fun. so what did you come up with? you should have ended up with shitty shit penis puss. sounds like anal sex to me. ok, you can laugh now. or do you want more?
Q: how do you scare flying insects? A: boo bees!
Q: what did the mayonaise say to the refridgerator? A: close the door. i'm dressing.
you're still not laughing. ok, one more. i made this one up when i was four years old. my mother and grandmother were telling jokes and i wanted to play so this is what i came up with...
Q: why did the clock run up the wall? A: because it didn't want to get hung.
awfully different without you
don't get around much anymore
ok i was complaining about my music, and lack there of yesterday but i need to clarify some points. as it stands i have a total of five cd's and one 7" and 2 tapes. in my posession. that is by accident. all of my music is supposed to be in oklahoma. most of it is. what remains here is stuff that was not were it was suppose to be. this is a very sore point with me. for the past 5 years or so my audio collection has fallen into complete chaos. i know i am missing stuff but will not know what until i get it all back together. once that is done i will start replacing, encoding, databsing, and marking my cd's again. then i will start on records and tapes. i know i will be a lot happier when i am actually able to find the song or cd i am looking for. no big deal, right? it is when you are dealing with 1200+ cd's...plus however many hundreds of other formats. which is why i started databasing and encoding stuff in the first place. there is a lot of money involved. plus there are a lot of things that irreplaceable. a lot of things that would cost too much to replace. i have no desire to even attempt to replace things that are limited editions, autographed, or whatever. and dammit, i want to be able to find it when i am looking for it. sure a lot* of stuff is on the computer but it is only a slice of the big picture. i am not one of these people that can get by with fifty or a hundred cd's. one time while talking to 
mama2jude i started laughing about that. i was going of about something similar to this and then said something about a hundred cd's spread out btween the stereo and the computer. then i realize i had just passed off that number and that there are a good number of people that don't even have that many. yet that is what i basically had in close range in one room or the other. i am proud of my collection. it took a lot of time effort and hard talking to get it to where it is. it just need to be a better place. as proud as i am, i am also very paranoid so very few people ever see it. wouldn't you be? part of the way i got my collection to where it is at is by not getting rid of stuff. i actually did get rid of one record last year and it was the first time in 12 or more years that i had done that. i sold my copy of the record the smashing pumpkins put out. i had only listened to it a very few times. i didn't really care for it. the only reason i bought it was because i had previous dealings with the guy, mike potentional, that put it out. so when i came across it at rainbow, i had to pick it up. i had heard some rumors about the value of it so i look it up. the going price was right. better than a hundred bucks for a record i didn't care for was a good reason for me. but it was still hard. for a long time there have been a couple of jokes about my collections. the first one is who is going to be involved in the fight over who gets it. the second is how much money they will make. but i have my own fun with it. when everthing is set up i will tell people to pick something out to play. it usually takes a little while for them to get there overwhelmed head together enough to find something. mikey was one of the first to work around this. he would grab the first one that caught his eye and would continue looking while that was playing. that was the right answer. of course it is also pretty easy to find what you are looking for if it is there since it is all in numerical order by artist and then alphabetical by album. it was album by release date but that was a long time ago. well it supposed to be. right now it is just a huge mess that is halfway across the country. of course my stereo is there as well but you would not recognize it as one. and you really would not touch it. those who have touched it with out training have received harsh scouldings. two recod players that need serviced and replaced with 1200's, two dual cassettes, two cd players, at least one of which needs to be replaced by a burner, two mixers that need to be replced by one that is big enough for the job, an 8 track player that needs cleaned but still works very well, a tv and vcr, and the receiver. but there are spare part. there is a spare turntable that will soon have a new home, a pair of single tape decks, a 15 disk changer and a really small crappy mixer. the spare parts will evenually be the public system. the rest will reamain under lock and key. and i am sure there is stuff i am missing. since i still have cd's in transit** that i have not even heard, i really want to get this stuff organized so i can get back down to business. so you wonder why i want to get a tatoo of the little plastic thing that goes inside 45's if i can ever remember what they are called.
*11756 tracks but unsorted so there are some repeations
**rollins stuff from my sister and a box of lucia promo cd's fromphillyglamgoth that are already being distributed to various clubs and such...even though i have not heard it yet. got an autographed picture, that i haven't seen either.
mama2jude i started laughing about that. i was going of about something similar to this and then said something about a hundred cd's spread out btween the stereo and the computer. then i realize i had just passed off that number and that there are a good number of people that don't even have that many. yet that is what i basically had in close range in one room or the other. i am proud of my collection. it took a lot of time effort and hard talking to get it to where it is. it just need to be a better place. as proud as i am, i am also very paranoid so very few people ever see it. wouldn't you be? part of the way i got my collection to where it is at is by not getting rid of stuff. i actually did get rid of one record last year and it was the first time in 12 or more years that i had done that. i sold my copy of the record the smashing pumpkins put out. i had only listened to it a very few times. i didn't really care for it. the only reason i bought it was because i had previous dealings with the guy, mike potentional, that put it out. so when i came across it at rainbow, i had to pick it up. i had heard some rumors about the value of it so i look it up. the going price was right. better than a hundred bucks for a record i didn't care for was a good reason for me. but it was still hard. for a long time there have been a couple of jokes about my collections. the first one is who is going to be involved in the fight over who gets it. the second is how much money they will make. but i have my own fun with it. when everthing is set up i will tell people to pick something out to play. it usually takes a little while for them to get there overwhelmed head together enough to find something. mikey was one of the first to work around this. he would grab the first one that caught his eye and would continue looking while that was playing. that was the right answer. of course it is also pretty easy to find what you are looking for if it is there since it is all in numerical order by artist and then alphabetical by album. it was album by release date but that was a long time ago. well it supposed to be. right now it is just a huge mess that is halfway across the country. of course my stereo is there as well but you would not recognize it as one. and you really would not touch it. those who have touched it with out training have received harsh scouldings. two recod players that need serviced and replaced with 1200's, two dual cassettes, two cd players, at least one of which needs to be replaced by a burner, two mixers that need to be replced by one that is big enough for the job, an 8 track player that needs cleaned but still works very well, a tv and vcr, and the receiver. but there are spare part. there is a spare turntable that will soon have a new home, a pair of single tape decks, a 15 disk changer and a really small crappy mixer. the spare parts will evenually be the public system. the rest will reamain under lock and key. and i am sure there is stuff i am missing. since i still have cd's in transit** that i have not even heard, i really want to get this stuff organized so i can get back down to business. so you wonder why i want to get a tatoo of the little plastic thing that goes inside 45's if i can ever remember what they are called.*11756 tracks but unsorted so there are some repeations
**rollins stuff from my sister and a box of lucia promo cd's from
phillyglamgoth that are already being distributed to various clubs and such...even though i have not heard it yet. got an autographed picture, that i haven't seen either.i can see inside you
the sickness is rising
don't try to deny what you feel
the question was asked in comments, so i am going to answer is so we are all clear on the issue. is there anything in oklahoma that is worth going back to. since this has come down to a life or death question, i will have to say yes. and since there are very few that have ever heard me say anything where i acknowledged a value on my life, it makes it even that more important. this is something that has been very hard for me to accept but the situations clashed and here we are. there are enough people there to make sure i keep my shit in order and smack me around if it comes down to that. i don't think it will but just in case. for all practical purposes i should be dead right now. i tried hard enough. i'm trying now but things i never have. things like trying to enjoy my life, live my life instead of end it, trusting people and being happy. a lot of things haven't seemed right in a very long time, if ever, that seem perfectly natural now. yeah, this new and special person in my life has something to do with it. you talk to some one so much and you start to actually get to know yourself. there are somethings that were pushed to very dark corners that are now seeing light. i understand there are several people that do not approve of my dating habits at all. i care but i also know what i want. it might not be the right choice, but it is my choice.
i don't need time alone to get over it. it is not the way i have ever worked. i have tried it several times but it ended up making matters worse for me. the one time i chose to "play the field" ended up being a major disaster. the four people i ended up in that time were things i did not want at all. one was a slut to the nth degree*, one was underage and two had boyfiends that as it turned out they were only temporarily broken up with. to add to it, one of them was an exgirlfriend of mine that was dating a good friend, one was an exgirlfriend of his and a good friend of mine, one was the exgirfriend of another friend.** it was completely screwed up and messed with my head really hard. i want a relationship because i like the companionship. the sex is basically just an added bonus.
contrary to what some people think i do not go out chasing skirts as soon as a relationship is over. it is just the way things seem to look. i really don't chase after anyone. gave that up a long time ago. i have a lot of friends that are girls and sometimes that is where things have happened. other times it has been because i was single so i was actually talking to people. since i really don't hit on girls that i am interested in, things move along differently. i talk to them. something that a lot of people apparently don't know how to do. and i call. i have had numerous involved relationships and i know it is not because i am good looking. that only leaves two other options that a girl would stick around with me. either because i am good in bed or because i provide emotional support to the needy. i don't see either of those being right either, so i don't know. i honestly have no idea why someone would be interesteed in my but i know better than to question it too much. if both parties are happy you just take it from there. and a relationship is what i am happy with. it gives me hope.
i know it seems like i went off in a completely odd direction but that is my answers. but i hope it explains the answer to several other questions as well as completely answering this one. want to ask me any more questions about my choices in life. as it stands, i am pretty sure of my answers. we might come back to more on this later but that it how it currently stands. this is the level i want to play on,
*supposedly she was on a thirty day leave from the service and was attemting to sleep with a different guy each night. i was something like number 29. use protection and get tested.
**oh what a tangled web we weave when at first we plot to conceive. everyone was aware of this kind of thing because it is natural to ask before pursuing any interest that is a known ex. not to mention you find out about any quirks that might be a problem. some of this will be covered more in depth in the current story.
you never thought about it
you just write it on your jeans
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