the light's on in the window she's waiting by the phone talking to a memory that's never coming home

yes no maybe i don't know
can you repeat the question?

stolen from feygrrl who got it from coldbeansoup who borrowed from...

[name] Allin
[location] uhhhh, can i get back to you on that?
[eye color] plaid. well ok hazel but close enough.
[height] you make me feel about this big.
[heritage] well i have that card that says i am only so much cherokee and i have a scottish/irish late name but in the end i am a lot of things.
[last cd i listened to] the is still the same as it was before. the one with the hearts on the front of it.
[artist i have the most albums of] trick question. albums: it is probably a close race between the beatles, johnny cash and the dead kennedys. on that there are a lot of repeats for the dead kennedys because of alternate versions, pirates, etc. Cd's: it is prolly tori amos becuase of various bootlegs but most of those are copies. for official releases it is either they might be giants or einsturzende neubauten. once i get everything back together and into the database i'll be able to give a complete and acurate answer. even if it is what too much like math for my tastes.
[last time i turned on the radio] this morning on the way to the library. there is always noise when you come into my world. and man it's almost always loud in here.
[last place i drove to] that would be to the library. i was suppose to make a longer drive than that but that's not the way it went.
[last holiday i took] i don't think i have ever took a holiday as i think of them.
[most beautiful place i've ever been to] i've been to a lot of beautiful places. each one making it different then the others. i could make a list but that could go on for days.
[country i would never want to visit] there isn't one. if i could do it i would be able to go to everyone just to see what was there and what it was like. so i start on a smaller scale with these united states. 24 four more to go.
[year of my life i would never live over] none of them. but it won't happen so why bother?
[last movie i saw in the theatre] well i caught the end of core. not bad at all. last entire movie was as always rhps.
[worst roommate] myself. other than that it would prolly be my sister. i love her but when we are too close for too much we fight like hell. sarcasm and tension you can cut with a knife.
[most paranoid about] dying? just kidding. i don't know. i am paranoid about a lot of things.
[the person i tell the juicy stuff to first] usually it's prolly mikey if i bother to tell anyone. waht is the juicy stuff?
[best online friend] that would almost have to be jami and salem. i know that is two people but go scratch. i suppose dr donald f busky might be in there too but that is a much longer story. and for those who are curious, yes he is a real doctor but not a medical one. if you want to look him up start with amazon.
[number of jackets i own] uhhhh, 20 maybe. i really have no idea. three that i am most likely to wear but i wear the other sometimes. i am such a fashion whole. ok, i'll stop laughing now.
[type of car i wish i had] take a wild guess.
[dream job] stay at home father. at the very least something that does not require me leaving the house.
[fave lip gloss or chapstick] beats me.
[last kiss] mmmm very yummy and wonderful
[fave pen] well, you know. those and those.
[countries i have been to] canada and mexico. i am not very well traveled.
[other languages i know phrases in] bitta. spanish, german, polish, twi, french and i am sure i am missing some. none of them are all that nice.
[other language i would love to learn] all of the ones cover above plus russian and japanese. and yeah i am working on it. not that hard but i am working on it.

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is this the best thing i can do?
it ain't done me no good so far

please don't touch me. poke. i was thinking about a couple of things this morning i thought i would share. a couple of silly things that only mildly relate to each other...

toni had asked me if i wanted to got see rhs in dallas. never seen the play so i was definately up for it. once we got there maybe half of our regular cast was there. we all sat in the same section of this very intimate theatre. the place had maybe 75 seats divided in three sections that wrapped around the stage. the sections were three rows deep each. our group ended up with seats in all three rows. i am always the one in the back so i have no idea how i ended up sitting in the front row. so the show starts and the girl playing trixie starts in. while going through the song she is going around and sitting in the laps of all the guys in the front row. i am not wanting this. too uncomfortable for my tastes. when she finishs i am kind of releaved that she never got to me. i am also a little disappointed. so during 'time warp' all of the players were all over the stage. i actually got caught very much by surprise when the girl playing columbia ended up sitting in my lap for the entire length of her solo. i froze. the thing that actually stands out most is geetting poked by just about everyone behind me. some of them were poking a little harder because they knew that i had a huge crush on the columbia from our cast. she wasn't there which made it a little easier to deal with. only a few of those bruising my back were aware of that little fact and she definately wasn't. but the ones who knew, knew.
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not too long after i got to boston it was announced the exene and lydia would be putting on a spoken word performance. you bet your ass i was going to be at that. by the time the show happened i had all but quit going to shows. but this was something special. there is a theroy that in my life exene is she by whom all others are judged. meaning that there will be resemblance between her and the girl i am dating or whatever. i disagree but do not argue the point either. so i get to the show and i am nervous in ways i have never been for a show. so we end up standing around talking waiting for this thing to begin. finally somebody gets on stage and does an introduction. lydia and exene ended coming to the front through the crowd and close enough to me that i could have touched them. when exene passed i am not exagerating to say that i almost passed out. fainted. the only thing that kept that from happening was the realization the i had a couple of fingers repeatedly poking into my back. i don't think i even ackowledged them. all i can remember from that point on is standing there transfixed by her prescence. stunned. concentrating so hard that at times i actually had to think to laugh or clap. we hung around for a little bit after it was done. i remember the bar seeemed fairly empty but it probably emptied out while i was not paying attention. then i went off to work in a complete daze. good thing it was people i knew and trusted poking me.

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have you changed just too much
to let me inside

i have this one problem that i eventually need to get looked at. when i get too excited about something that is about to happen i get completely exhausted. i get a really bad headache and if i lay down i will go out immediately. the first time i ever remember this happening was right before my senior prom. i was completely ready and getting ready to leave. i sat down on the bed and woke up about half and hour later. i have missed so much of my life because of this. of course to make matters worse i will usually not be able to sleep until that point. so if you see it coming keep me up until we get there. once i get to where ever i am usually fine. but if you have to wake me up, well, good luck. i am not a light sleeper and under those conditions i am even worse. if you do actually get me to wake up i will end up running around like crazy to get going. screaming profanities and self depreciating statement the whole time. more than likely i will end up screaming at who ever is in the way as well. bascially you should either help or get out of the way. yelling at me about being late does nothing but make matters worse. the only exception to being ok once i get there happened when cliff and i went to shellac. after we got there i started looking for a place to sit down. found a place in the back and passed out. slept throgh everything until he came up and tapped me. he said something to the effecct that shellac were getting ready to go on. of course you have to wonder how it is possible to sleep with bands playing. with noise that excessive. you get used to the noise and even begin to miss it when it's not there. that's part of the reason i have trouble sleeping at night. too quite. too much room to think about too many things.

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save yourself serve yourself
world serves its own needs
listen to your heart bleed

i thought i would up date repost this in case anyone wanted to pick something off of it. not that bad of a kill ratio so far if you ask me. i realize some of the stuff may never get written. some of it is goofy stuff that may actually get buried inside longer posts and/or stories. i know there is probably a lot of stuff missing too. if you have any suggestions, let me know.
[notes to self about future posts and stories. clues that will not really make much sense]
famous faces ringfinger kyles subway series my life in storage out of mass
dying and dead crushes it's a small world black death built on a gun
sids (maybe w/ guns) head injury dropping and driving mass ps
books recomend archival and worldwide effigies of past lives joe mama
jahmanji all apologies nirvanas beer (maybe w/ famous faces) the count
seeing the sizes resume lack of training ambulance chasing
fifty bucks and a new battery bill and the boys (maybe w/ famous faces) fight girl
chris's cold weed first one is free stand up stand out plagerized twelve year olds
hand shoot flatten disaster follows the t word back and forth monster first and last
strip teases old old poems bold but not when it comes to money fire works
die before I get old juniors cut and paste trip rules concepts of paper money
big black bears corolla water dump what goes up i must come down friends femmes
more random rants for alice the camel be a leader not a follower leaving las vegas

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no regrets. no worries. no long goodbyes. we have a go for lift off.