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empallini know some of you want to hear none of this but well its not that often that i really want to talk about it.
i have a lot of projects in the works and a lot that have never left the mental chalkboard. if you follow along it starts to sound if i am completely delusional. i am not - just mostly. sure i want it all to make it. no i dont expect any of it to make it. frankly i dont know if i could handle it. no i dont think all of the active ones are good ideas. i really dont think any of them are good ideas. but i figure its good enough to give a go at. because i have to. if i dont have these massive overwhelming project i spend way too much time thinking about my singular goal in life. to snuff it. so you see you really need to encourage me. for those who have an emotional attachment they keep me going. for those who are realistic you can make a bundle post mortem on any of the items you have if one of the ideas makes it. it actually because of this atmosphere that money has never been a big motivator for me. as long as i have to get what applies i am fine. but i want to shuffle off knowing that a select group of people will gain from my pain. and that would make me happy. oh yes it would be too late then now wouldnt it. it kills me that i cant be happy for some of you. i know you would love to see me happy so i try to fake it. but i have been faking it for so long i dont think you would really know if i really was. nor wood i.
simple words for a complicated situation. and some of them are even spelled right
i have a lot of projects in the works and a lot that have never left the mental chalkboard. if you follow along it starts to sound if i am completely delusional. i am not - just mostly. sure i want it all to make it. no i dont expect any of it to make it. frankly i dont know if i could handle it. no i dont think all of the active ones are good ideas. i really dont think any of them are good ideas. but i figure its good enough to give a go at. because i have to. if i dont have these massive overwhelming project i spend way too much time thinking about my singular goal in life. to snuff it. so you see you really need to encourage me. for those who have an emotional attachment they keep me going. for those who are realistic you can make a bundle post mortem on any of the items you have if one of the ideas makes it. it actually because of this atmosphere that money has never been a big motivator for me. as long as i have to get what applies i am fine. but i want to shuffle off knowing that a select group of people will gain from my pain. and that would make me happy. oh yes it would be too late then now wouldnt it. it kills me that i cant be happy for some of you. i know you would love to see me happy so i try to fake it. but i have been faking it for so long i dont think you would really know if i really was. nor wood i.
simple words for a complicated situation. and some of them are even spelled right
